1. I’m certified to teach archery… but I’m not that good at it. Good thing you don’t have to be good at it to be certified to teach it.
2. I can make a kick-ass fire. And do it in the rain.
3. Puppies never fail to make me smile. NEVER.
4. I can bend my thumb completely backwards. It grosses everyone out. I just laugh.
5. I graduate soon and have absolutely no idea what job I will have or how I’ll afford the house I plan on living in… but somehow I’m not overly concerned yet.
6. I hate shopping of all kinds. I hate spending time searching for clothes or items that either don’t fit or get worn out or eaten, it’s annoying. Plus I hate being broke. I’d rather not go shopping at all.
7. I hate the smell of asphalt and skunks and exhaust. It makes me feel sick instantly.
8. My dog is my best friend. I’ll be so sad when he dies… he’s been there for me since 5th grade.
9. I cannot do a cartwheel. Never could. Came close once when I thought I wanted to be a cheerleader in 7th grade. But I failed at it.
10. I sometimes get coughing fits when I eat cream cheese (like on bagels and shit). Weird, I know.
Your life is so much better now after reading this- I know. You are so welcome.
So my mother, the nurse, says that my finger is likely completely healed. Which means, I still can’t feel part of it, the other part hurts like a bitch to touch it and is super swollen, and I still can’t use it for jack-shit. If this is true, kiss playing the violin and piano goodbye… basically my future in music is gone if this is true.
I may need to just save some money and see a specialist, idk who I would see about that… but I definitely cannot afford to go right now.
Let’s just hope it’s deep tissue healing still and I will at least get the painful part to go away.
ever wonder if the man of your dreams has been in front of you all along and you messed up the chance of ever being with him? like he’s been there or he will be there, but somehow you don’t realize that he is “it” and you screw it up.
I seriously miss my left hand being fully functional. It’s been a month since I sliced my finger open and needed 4 stitches. I still can’t feel half my fingernail and below the cut (where the cut was deepest) is still super swollen and hurts to touch. I can’t fully extend my finger on it’s own and I “dancer” hands are out of the question. It looks super deformed and feels weird. I used to think I had pretty hands… well, not so much now with my giant ugly deformed finger that is useless.
I just hope I can regain feeling so I can play violin. None of the above will matter if I can still do that.
Hopefully… if not, I guess there’s a reason I didn’t pick the violin as my instrument in college and this is reassuring me that I was correct in my life choice. But I’d be super sad and depressed if I can’t play anymore.
Deeply hurt by the fact that my mother just texted me saying that she isn’t sure if she can make it to my college graduation because she’s been on medical leave at the hospital for the last 2 months and will be starting up soonish, but she has a new manager and doesn’t trust that she will get anything she requests off. Well that is SHIT.
My family has failed at supporting me in college. I have had MANY concerts where I’ve had special descant parts, or a solo thing that they refused to come to. Once, they told me they were coming, and didn’t even show. They’ve come to maybe 4 total concerts out of 5 years. They only live 40 minutes away. And they never come to visit me. Never.
Anywho, graduation is August 11th and my mother is saying she isn’t sure that she can go? What shit is this? Why would you do that to me? If she ends up having to work, the entire family won’t come… so I’ll have 7 tickets and no one there for me. WHY WOULD I CONSIDER WALKING THEN? Why do I expect my family to at least be present for one important even in my life? If I were getting married, I doubt they’d come. It fucking hurts.
I know my uncle will go… but I doubt anyone else will. Why is it that my uncle, who lives in Atlanta, will make the effort but my immediate family refuses?
“The more time you can spend with children, the better. You need their bright energy.”—Does my horoscope not realize at work with children… everyday. I have about 50 a day! IS THAT NOT ENOUGH!?!?! Sheesh. Silly yahoo.
…that my day started by hearing a song that reminded me of that douchebag. Way to start of my day.
My nights feel so open and lonely now without him. But I was fine before I met him, and I’m fine now. I don’t need him or his shit- hence why I am choosing without. It’s just that lame phase when a relationship ends and you are like “damn, if only…”. No “if only“‘s allowed anymore. I’m better off without that nonsense.
I’ll likely be single forever, but that’s ok… at least I won’t let men walk all over me and use me.
Thanks for the responses from last night! I asked because I had to be the jerk and end a relationship that was clearly unhealthy and going no where. I made the mistake of trusting someone I had instincts against trusting. And he abused that trust. I’m unfortunately an over-forgiving person in nature so I let things that bother me go. But when I attempted to bring up something that bothered me- he shut off entirely, for an extensive period of time. I know I should have just been done after a day of that, but I was forgiving. Well, I’m done. And it’s over.
And you know what? I’m fine. I’m disappointed in myself for letting it go on so long, but I know how much I can handle after my first boyfriend being a nut-job. I reached that limit and BAM- done. At least I had the “balls” to do something… he refused to even respond to a breakup text (pretty much expected that after the last 2 weeks of silence).
If he ever reads this, that’s cool. I’m sure you had your reasons for being a douchebag. However, who is the one missing out? Really? I know it’s not me. You go on with your bad self and do what you do. He is just another tally under my list of “guys who contribute to Sarah’s trust issues”.
WOW… I posted this in my blogger like 2 years ago. Some is still true. Other things have changed. And some I wish I still held that value but things have changed on my side. It’s weird to see what I used to want in a man and compare it to what I want now. Just a weird find at a weird time for me.
-A big guy (not fat, but larger built). I know this is asking a LOT from fate, but all the guys I’ve dated are either short or tall and skinny. No matter what, I feel like a monster compared to them. Albeit, I am 5’10” and slender… I cannot stand having larger hips than my guy’s shoulders. This is like the only physical thing I really obsess over, and I hate that I do.
-Someone who will listen to me. I know it’s in man’s nature to FIX everything. But sometimes, I just would LOVE it if I had someone let me talk it out. Seriously, how easy is it to sit there and say/do nothing and get praise for it later cause you rock? I don’t expect anyone to do anything for me, therefore I don’t expect him to fix anything. Just prove to me you care by sitting through my verbal vomit.
-I honestly hate globs of PDA. I think little things are sweet, but should people witness everything? NO! I much prefer it if holding hands and hugs are the only things people witness.
-I would love a guy that I can mess around with. I like wrestling or goofing around, as long as I win sometimes. lol I’m a tom-boy at heart… so don’t you dare get this impression that I’m a fragile girl, I’ll kick your ass.
-Space is divine! I’m not clingy (I hope), so neither should a guy. I could care less if you spend time with the guys or whatever, go for it! I like knowing that we fit into each other’s lives, not us making room for each other. I also don’t need to know what you are doing every moment nor do I need to talk to you everyday! I’m perfectly fine, I promise. If I want to talk to you, I’ll call you and you can do the same. Calling just because is dumb.
-I honestly don’t know how to handle gifts. If you want to do something cute or romantic, take me somewhere and do something! I’d much rather do something than get flowers or candy. That way I can brag about how cool your gift was cause we did something awesome, isn’t that a great thank you? You get to hear about it for months after how much I appreciated it.
-Show you care. Little things are better than the big things… see above about my view on gifts. I’d love it if when we didn’t see each other for a long time I’d get one of those 5 minute hugs, or maybe a post-it hidden in my room when I leave you alone for a few minutes, or a kiss on the forehead when we are standing in line for food. Stupid little things are cute, and I can giggle about those forever… large gifts, I just freeze up and don’t know what to do. But remember, the little things are gifts too. Do not give if you expect something in return. The more you demand it, the less you will get it. Just saying. I don’t do things when you expect it.
-Here’s another materialistic side to me… I want a guy who can carry a tune. He doesn’t have to sing perfectly or be trained… just be able to carry pitch. And if you can’t sing, don’t try… it seriously makes my insides hurt. And the other thing, he must be able to appreciate the outdoors. If I can’t take my guy out into the wilderness for a weekend, then I don’t think it will ever work out. Camping is my life, you best be able to accept that.
-Uhhh, please… smell good guys. I think its wonderful if I guy smells good and his scent lingers after he’s gone. Instantly will make me miss you.
-Ask before you do things. Don’t assume I am free all the time cause you are bound to be sorely disappointed. Ask me if I’m free if it’s a surprise, or just check with me before you decide we are doing something. I hate being told I have to do something.
-I may have trust issues, but I don’t want them. Since my last relationship, things have left me salty about boyfriends seeing/hanging out with other girls. I don’t want to feel jealous or anxious about it, so all I ask is don’t give me a reason to worry and I won’t. Don’t make me think there is a possibility and just be honest with me. If you are hanging out with a girl, cool- tell me. It will hurt more if you don’t. At least until I know you well enough and I know you won’t hurt me like I’ve been hurt before.
-Honesty. Yeah, every girl says this… but I mean it. I want you to be honest. If I did something that hurt you, tell me. If you don’t want to go see that chick-flick with me, tell me. A relationship is about compromise and how can you do that if you don’t know what the other person thinks?
-DO NOT make me beat you to get something out of you. If you are upset, I refuse to sit there for hours and try to get it out of you. I just won’t. It’s fine if you don’t want to tell me something right away, but sitting there and saying “why won’t you ask me about it?” won’t make me want to try. I just can’t do that. Either you tell me on your own free will, or you don’t. Limbo is not an option.
-Sitting in silence is ok. It proves we are comfortable with each other. We do not need someone talking all the time. It can be nice to sit there and just be us.
-Let me take pictures of you, and do not say that the ones I like are “ok” or “eh”. Clearly, they are for me… get over it. If I like them, it shouldn’t matter if you do. lol I try not to obsess over pictures. So you shouldn’t.